or at least to get other people to think you know what you're doing.
"People know what they're doing in the same way that a little
guppy in a cove knows the ocean.
"You can't write a novel while you're thinking that you don't
know what you're doing. So you figure out a way to convince
yourself you know what you're doing. It's only natural.
"You eat a sandwich. What does your body do with it? If you don't
know, who does? Whose body is it?
"It's like walking in total darkness except for a little spotlight
that's illuminating the stone you're going to step on in a
stream just before you step on it.
"If you could stay in a dream long enough to get lucid, long
enough to begin to operate with some consciousness and choice,
still--where did the dream come from? You can interpret the
dream, but what led you to choose that specific way of
interpreting, out of all the ways? What led you to have
that dream, with those "symbols," those "ants", that "way
"Is it you arguing with me, or your mom and dad? Is your mom and
dad arguing with me, or with my mom and dad?
"What is wrong with saying you don't know what you're doing?
Even if you know what you're doing, the part that you know
compared with the part you don't know is about 1:50000, at
"It's good to know what you're doing, as long as you realize
you really don't.
"In every part of every thing there is a part that is unknown,
and unknowable. That is the most important part. How do I
know? How did you know right away that it's true? Knowing
something is different than knowing how you know. Knowing
is different than proving is different than having to prove.
"All of growing up is designed to sell you one idea:
You know what you're doing.
"The only way you can know something is to find out. There are
lots of things we know that don't matter. I'm only talking
about the things that are important to know that we don't
know and maybe never will. That's why they're here. What stories
are for. Words and stories are to say things that we can't
say. Saying something is not the same as knowing it. To know
is to own. To say is to see."
Ishii Ougourou, from WHAT (out of print)
Saturday, December 19, 2009
Posted by Richard Martin.... at 2:03 PM